I have an abusive mother. I have no relatives and my dad left before I was born. I told someone about it once, but my mother is very manipulative and smart, so little 10-year-old looked like some lying little girl who was crazy and couldn't be trusted. I even got put into a sanitarium/weird hospital for about three weeks. After I finally got out, everyone still thought I was loony, so I had to go to a "special" school for "special" kids like "me." I went to that school for about a year and a half.
I got back into normal school, and I am now in middle school. I know this is very odd to be asking, but I really want to become someone special when I grow up. I want to make a difference in the world and help people, but I mean a BIG difference. I was wondering, is there a way I can tell someone about the abuse and get help, and still be able to pay for things like college?
I'm worried that I may just become some other drug dealer if I run away, and if I get help, I may become hopeless and lost and not become anybody. I have no friends or anyone to help me get through this and I'm so scared and frightened about the future, about my mom, and about life. I'm 13 now. I need advice! HELP!
Let me begin by telling you that I Googled your e-mail address and read your blog in case there was more information out there that I could use to answer your question better. Unfortunately, I don't think it's something that I can get into here too deeply for reasons I have written you back about.
Since you don't seem to have any a trusted friend's mother or a relative to talk to you, you should talk to a teacher or counselor at school about your home life. If the person you talk to isn't paying attention to you, find someone else. Don't stop until someone listens.
As for the future, well, don't worry about it until you get there. If you're really willing to make the effort, you can do something world-changing in your life.